How big is my God?

I have just been in awe of God lately. It actually started  about a month ago.  I  was watching a Francis Chan clip from his book "Crazy Love."  In this clip he talks about prayer and worship.  He wondered if we just pray or do we really think about who we are praying too.  This got me to thinking:  I was having a heck of a time even wanting to take the time to pray.

I started reading the stories of when God describes himself or reveals his glory to people.  Common phrases I found were shining like the sun, white as snow, like flames of fire, voice like the sound of many waters, surrounded by angels, if you looked at his face you would  die.  So the people that encountered this what was thier response.  They fell on thier faces in fear of the Lord, repented of sin and took off their shoes due to His holiness. Faces had to be covered due to His radiance, they listened and obeyed because told them not to fear and because I am sure His voice demanded respect.

Then I started thinking about how I read the Bible.  Why???  The Bible this amazing God's Words and instructions to me.  I do not want to be like the people in John 5:36-39msg.  

     36 But the witness that really confirms me far exceeds John's witness. It's the work the

          Father gave me to complete. These very tasks, as I go about completing them, confirm

         that the Father, in fact, sent me. 37 The Father who sent me, confirmed me. And you

          missed it. You never heard his voice, you never saw his appearance. 38 There is

          nothing left in your memory of his Message because you do not take his Messenger

          seriously. 39 "You have your heads in your Bibles constantly because you think you'll

          find eternal life there. But you miss the forest for the trees. These Scriptures are all about me! 

They had Jesus right there in front of them as well as the scripture and they missed Him because they were so busy trying to obey man made rules that the word written on the scrolls that they were memorizing for years were just that merely words.  They choked out the life.  They didn't let God change them because they were not focused on Him.  Instead they were focused on themselves   

Sometimes I think I get caught up in some of that.  I let other things capture my attention then I contemplate and worry and then I even fear it.  The other night my husband said to me you need to let that thought grow wings and fly away before it nests.   At first ,I was upset that he didn't care about like I did.  Then I  realized he is right.  I am not trusting the God of the Universe.  The God that I see in scripture that did miracle after miracle.  I am not trusting that he cares about me even though he paid the ultimate sacrafice for me.  God has given us the oppurtunity to believe Him for who He is and what He can do.  When I don't do that I am my own worst enemy.  I need to stop and focus on the truth of His Word to be reminded of who he is and what He has promised us.  He has given us a piece of Him through the Spirit so as I wrestle with my flesh to put it to death I must pray.  I must thank him for who he is  so I remember His power and glory and ask the omnipresent, omniscent, God  to help me  figure out what I need to do to fall in line with His plan since He created the Universe and me. Then I need to play my part if it is something I can change and if not hold it with open hands to God and let Him, the Almight God move  and do what only he can do.

The old Hymn does hold the Key

Trust and Obey for in no other way
  to be happy in Jesus but to Trust and Obey.